There is this game called
Cthulhu Dice by Steve Jackson Games that I, my fiance, and my brother and sister were playing the other day. The concept of the game is that each of us has three tokens representing out sanity and then rolling a twenty sided dice in order to gain, lose, and pass the tokens between us. There is a pile of tokens in the middle of the table representing Cthulhu. On my turn I rolled a symbol that meant I got to take a token from the Cthulhu pile. My sister in excitement grabbed one too proclaiming, "Cthulhu is gifting us!" but she wasn't the one to roll the dice and therefore didn't receive the sanity token.
This made me think, why would a mythical creature "gift" us with anything. I would assume according to Cthulhu lore that he would be more of a taker and not so much a gifter! so that was a contradiction. Also the fact that my sister mistakenly grabbed one with such excitement and then realizing that it wasn't hers to take also played in my mind as a bitter sweet moment. Our lives are full of emotional ups and downs. We all have bitter and sweet moments. And also there are fears and contradictions that plague each of us much like inner demons! This moment in time is the reason for the name of this blog.
There is this game called Cthulhu Dice by Steve Jackson Games that I, my fiance, and my brother and sister were playing the other day. The concept of the game is that each of us has three tokens representing out sanity and then rolling a twenty sided dice in order to gain, lose, and pass the tokens between us. There is a pile of tokens in the middle of the table representing Cthulhu. On my turn I rolled a symbol that meant I got to take a token from the Cthulhu pile. My sister in excitement grabbed one too proclaiming, "Cthulhu is gifting us!" but she wasn't the one to roll the dice and therefore didn't receive the sanity token. 
This made me think, why would a mythical creature "gift" us with anything. I would assume according to Cthulhu lore that he would be more of a taker and not so much a gifter! so that was a contradiction. Also the fact that my sister mistakenly grabbed one with such excitement and then realizing that it wasn't hers to take also played in my mind as a bitter sweet moment. Our lives are full of emotional ups and downs. We all have bitter and sweet moments. And also there are fears and contradictions that plague each of us much like inner demons! This moment in time is the reason for the name of this blog.
